Elizabeth

by Kevin Lewis

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A piece to the much larger celebration of a beautiful woman. Written by a son trying to understand.

I am a "momma's boy".

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released May 21, 2016

Sean Godreau: Bass, Recording Engineer
Chris Shacklett: Drums, percussion
Catherine H-Wurster: Stand Up Bass
Shannon Stott-Rigsbee: Violin
Noah Dodds: Album Artwork
Kevin Lewis: Vocals, Guitar

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Kevin Lewis Plattsburgh, New York

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Track Name: Mother Dearest
Son call when you receive this, love you always and forever Mother Dearest
Son call when you receive this, love you always and forever Mother Dearest

Standing on the corner, in a rain soaked coat, in my pocket I keep our last note
And it warms my heart when you're so far away, I call you when I can just to hear you.
You haven't gone out of my sight today, or any other no matter where I look you're here to stay.
And forever is a long time to be on my mind. Some days its a burden, some days I'm fine.

Son call when you receive this, love you always and forever Mother Dearest
Son call when you receive this, love you always and forever Mother Dearest

Knocked on the door. There were strangers in my old home. Asked if any knew the way.
Nodded their heads and lead me on, to see your smile once again.
It's been too long since we last embraced, I don't remember the le lines on your face.
But until then I will keep this note safe, until then I will keep it warm in the rain.

Son call when you receive this, love you always and forever Mother Dearest
Son call when you receive this, love you always and forever Mother Dearest
Son call when you receive this, love you always and forever Mother Dearest
Son call when you receive this, love you always and forever Mother Dearest
Track Name: A Piece of Me
Starting to learn what trouble I bring
That I am set off by the smallest thing
And what I know can end a family
Still the hands of time keep moving
No matter where I look they turn away
Blind to what has happened and the tears I shed
Behind closed doors, you forget to pray
Because you won't be heard no matter what you say

Don't be naïve it's in him to do
I will wait but there's something I'd ask of you
Please listen when I tell you his fists fly
And every time he comes my way a piece of me dies

No one listens, no one sees
Broken child is what they're making me
Regardless of whom I would want to be
But would I know what a dream is
How long can I last
Escape in my mind and this day too should pass
Some when I'll be dead but for now
Hold onto myself and try to keep the pieces together

Don't be naïve it's in him to do
I will wait but there's something I'd ask of you
Please listen when I tell you his fists fly
And every time he comes my way a piece of me dies
Track Name: Devil Music
I don't plan on dying anywhere I've been
It doesn't help that some days I don't leave my home
Corralled by the people with whom I share my cage
Maybe if we were on the same page I wouldn't have to hide my sickness

I use my hobbies to escape from the nightmares he creates
I use my hobbies to escape from the nightmares he creates
I use my hobbies to escape from the nightmares he creates
I use my hobbies to escape from the nightmares he creates

I think we were both looking at this from different perspectives
Without anyone here having any sort of clear objective
Don't rattle the bars on your way out pretty please
I don't need you to wake the monster to contract his disease

I use my hobbies to escape from the nightmares he creates
I use my hobbies to escape from the nightmares he creates
I use my hobbies to escape from the nightmares he creates
I use my hobbies to escape from the nightmares he creates

Have I lost myself who was I before
What am I doing here I don't know anymore

I don't plan on dying anywhere I've been
But it doesn't help that some days I don't leave my home
I left the man who used me for himself
Can I overcome this must I face this world alone?

I use my hobbies to escape from the nightmares he creates
I use my hobbies to escape from the nightmares he creates
I use my hobbies to escape from the nightmares he creates
I use my hobbies to escape from the nightmares he creates
Track Name: Steel Thread
Made it a habit to draw my name and place my heart inside
But every time I put it back felt the strings had changed
Then I tried pretending my heart wasn't there and
Soon enough those around me were gone

Who am I? I may never have the answer
But old habits can be broken steel threads can be severed
What am I? Starting to get the picture and I pray
Old habits can be broken steel threads can be severed

Then I tried to share what was in my head
But without my heart my voice fell short
Thought I was true, my thoughts were sound yet
My words were barbed and corse

Who am I? I may never have the answer
But old habits can be broken steel threads can be severed
What am I? Starting to get the picture and I pray
Old habits can be broken steel threads can be severed

Then I tried to find my heart one which lay still and cold
Couldn't have imagined how fragile I was, until that day I thought I was whole
It burned as I pulled with all my might to set myself free
Tears ran down my face as I remembered those lost but didn't seek

Who am I? I may never have the answer
But old habits can be broken steel threads can be severed
What am I? Starting to get the picture and I pray
Old habits can be broken steel threads can be severed

Still I pulled and still I shook for this pain in was mine to bare
Now choose not to forget times which brought doubt and fear
Had I known right from the start any path could be my true direction
I still question whether I was alive and I say 'No' with discretion

Who am I? I may never have the answer
But old habits can be broken steel threads can be severed
What am I? Starting to get the picture and I pray
Old habits can be broken steel threads can be severed

Who am I? I may never have the answer
But old habits can be broken steel threads can be severed
What am I? Starting to get the picture and I pray
Old habits can be broken steel threads can be severed
Track Name: Knockin' on your Window
It's not about the first it's that this was our last
So much for making up the time that's gone so fast
What am I to do with you not being here
Had I known this is the end what I'd change should be crystal clear

I'm knocking on your window
I'm knocking on your window
I'm knocking on your window
I'm knocking on your window

There isn't a day that I'm not missing you
Even though you can not hear me this letter's long past do
Maybe there is another time when I would see your face
But would you even recognize me or will seem out of place

I'm knocking on your window
I'm knocking on your window
I'm knocking on your window
I'm knocking on your window
Track Name: Skin + Bone
I can't go home 'cause I don't wanna watch you die
Love you so but has living ever crossed your mind
Warped by drugs and by booze and the test of time
Love you so but were we more than things in your mind

I'm crying because you ended my mother's life
Spoiled a woman who had the nerve to be your wife
And I don't wanna be your son anymore
I don't wanna be your son since you've thrown us out the door

Father I don't know where to go
If I follow your footprints my kids will feel this woe
To think I assumed you were my rock
That's all before I knew better since then I've had a good look at what I've got

I'm crying because you ended my mother's life
Spoiled a woman who had the nerve to be your wife
And I don't wanna be your son anymore
I don't wanna be your son since you've thrown us out the door

I hear you're broken and I am left unable
To save you from your own destruction
Social diseases can't be fought alone
I wish you had asked for help
I wish you had asked for help
I wish you had asked for help before letting me watch you turn to skin and bone
Track Name: I'm Sorry
I didn't think you'd be gone so soon
I admit to feeling betrayed you stayed with him
I ran to make myself better
And it's at the expense of memories missed

I'm sorry I never called
I'm sorry that I left
I'm sorry I couldn't be stronger
I'm sorry that I left you

I apologize for all the times I didn't call
I knew your health was fading too
I think about the last time I said goodbye
And it's like an open wound still bleeding still won't scab

I'm sorry I never called
I'm sorry that I left
I'm sorry I couldn't be stronger
I'm sorry that I left you

I know the same hate that saw you die
I see it in other men's eyes
I need to change I have to change
And I think of you every time I play every single day

I'm sorry I never called
I'm sorry that I left
I'm sorry I couldn't be stronger
I'm sorry that I left you
Track Name: Tearin' Too
I hold onto the things that I've done
Not because they are great but so I didn't lose you
Now that you are gone, why do I still carry you around
Is it really possible to let go without tearing me too

I hold onto the things that I've seen
Some are ugly, some have beauty held within
You can view all the things that I show you
The order is what could change but what am I supposed to do

Is it freedom to let go
Drop whatever and go with the flow
Why shouldn't I act on what I know
If I forget who I was how will I grow
How will I grow
How will I grow
How will I grow?

I hold onto the things that I feel
Not just these emotions that are real
I used to run away from these oh what a long day
Now I use them but I'm not sure which way

Is it freedom to let go
Drop whatever and go with the flow
Why shouldn't I act on what I know
If I forget who I was how will I grow
How will I grow
How will I grow
How will I grow?
Track Name: I Will Always Make Room
A love that transcends time
That can't be counted in sand
A love that keeps out the dark
That lights up the night sky

A love that glitters among the stars
That paints my world with wonder
A love that never keeps me second guessing
That let's me know there's no other

A love that transcends purpose
One that keeps me safe
A love that can overcome those who hurt us
Even though you're so far from this place

If all this counting has taught me anything
I don't have to give you away
I can always make room
To say 'I love you'